it been hours and hours since we talked.

everything seem weird now... tell me what to do. i always make you feel like i'm not loving you, not caring you.
yes, ytd i forget to bring my phone along with me, make you hell worry about me, thinking what had happen. make you feel worry and anxious, i felt soooo bad and guilty. maybe i shouldn't have agree to this chalet. even Brandon keep saying sorry to me, i felt bad.

it been nearly a day since we talked. is it better like this?

am i getting in your way?

maybe i dont know how to show my care to you.. you kept thinking that i dont care for you. god know how much i care but why is it that it always that it turn out to be opposite? my heart cried whenever such thing happen.

can anyone understand the feeling inside me? this feeling suck big time but no one knows. it keeping in my heart, it taking over me. i felt so useless when i show my care but yet not deliver.

maybe you should get a girl who is better than me, who has experience in this, who know how to show care in a sense you can see, feel, know it. because i'm afraid... really afraid.

baby, i love you but my love seem to make you suffer.